I think I was bored one day and decided to join Tumblr and created this Blogspot account (because apparently Facebook is not enough. Although, I have recently deactivated my account. I'm wondering how long that will last.) I didn't think of it then, but have now realized that I've been consumed by Tumblr (well, a LOT of my time.) I've stayed up late quite a few nights, just Tumbling away until my eyes decides to finally give up and get drowsy. Good news is I have been able to limit my Tumbling time a bit more lately. Yay for self-control. (Well, kind of.)
As addicting as it is, I wouldn't regret joining for a very good reason: great friends. I have gotten to know most of the people I follow and have become pretty good friends with in a very short amount of time. I could not believe how many awesome people out there with unbelievably great talents that share my wide range of interests. My recently re-hashed obsession with the show, Xena: Warrior Princess, have found no friends to talk about with until I joined Tumblr. I grew up with this show but lost interest when high school life got in the way. (As it turned out, joining the school choir and dance team then taking up a job, makes one very busy.) And here, I was wondering where all the Xenites were hiding. I also found quite a few other fandoms (including Buffy and Repo) hiding there as well. Yay!
As with everything, bad things come visit when good things happen. My relationship with some of my closest friends have gotten a bit sour. When I care for someone, I go all out. I would pretty much do anything and everything they need and to protect them. Though, I do not ask for anything in return. In my mindset, that's just how friendship works. I'd consider this one of my better qualities. But like all humans, I do get caught up with jealousy and rage. This is where my worse qualities come into play. Unfortunately, I'm the type of person who bottle things up inside and when my patience run out, everything explodes at the worst possible time. That is exactly what had happened recently. I'm still a bit conflicted on whether I should feel apologetic or stay firm about how I reacted. After a couple of days, when I have calmed down a bit (another flaw of mine is that I hold grudges longer than I know I should), I apologized to the people who got caught in between. But with the person I'm having issues with, I can't seem to let myself to, at the very least, let the person know exactly why I'm upset. In my opinion, they should know why even though, I know everyone tend to be a bit oblivious to half the things that are going on around them. I guess we'll have to see how things go. Maybe I'll feel different in a day or two and decide to try to fix things between us. Maybe take Oscar Wilde's advice, "Always forgive your enemies, nothing annoys them so much." But for now, I'm still at the grudge holding stage.
I think I'll leave it at that for now. I do not have a Xena picture to add on to this post but I just remembered that I made a couple of Xena GIFs that gives me a happy (not that kind of happy, you pervert.) Since I like leaving my posts with happy notes. Here you go:
